I sit here in the half light of the computer screen, unable to sleep. Pain is my constant companion these days. I try to look through the haze of this dark cloud that surrounds me, to look for the light, to find the beauty in anything....a lifeline to what I know, to what is certain....to what was certain.

...time past and time future
what might have been and what has been
point to one end, which is always present.

T.S.Eliot